Wednesday, December 8, 2010

a day of the gooder things.

Since I know Martha is right to a point... and since she does not see private correspondances I will dedicate this post to the GOOD things my kids do.

Martha and for that matter Mike and Stephanie and Cory too all will and do say thank you to me often...
for all of the abuse, lies, and useage of dear old mom I have had a couple really nice things lately...

yesterday Martha took Bradley and I out to lunch which was very nice. We totally enjoyed going out to eat at the cracker barrell and hearing from her co workers what a great server she is (I always knew she would be good at anything she  does concerning people )  she has been going to work with me since she was 11 and has always had a special touch with people.

stephanie sent me this text...on November 24th ... thank you so much for helping us so out so much lately. I know its an inconvience sometimes but were trying to get caught up on bills by working as much as possible. I hope to repay you for everything not just the money we owe you.

as I have stated before...I do not dislike Mike most of the time... he is a very likeable person who when he chooses is polite and quite funny... I do NOT like the situation.  but I am digressing this is a post of good stuffs not bad.   For now the rest remains to be seen on how and where we end up as a family....

Cory, well Cory is Cory he is slowly learning WHY and WHAT his dad and I have preached to him for years. For those months he was not working he spent the majority of the time taking care of Bradley and He has done a good job it shows in how bradley adores him... is he perfect??? nope not at all... does he do things as I would... Nope not most....Bradley is a carbon copy of his father in looks as well  as personality and perhaps has even more of the good qualities that always kept Cory out of so much trouble when he was little.
Cory knows when he has pushed my limits and buttons and usually avoids me for a while when he knows he has ...

Oddly enough for the most part I enjoy and even like being around my kids I like doing things for them and even when they are being total shits I love them dearly.  My cousin, Marilyn who has never met my kids yet knows about them and of course is one of the people who is andremains close to my mom ... emotionally close not physically close,  said that it is unconditional love ... something my mom would totally not understand.  the reason I bring this up is because of knowing that my mom would never accept nor understand why I keep doing for my kids after everything... why I don't do as she and disown my kids and why well I love them.

anyway Bradleys up and fussing today so must cut this short... but please always keep in mind when I am venting ... that even though I fuss and cuss and raise hell about the kids and what they do to me... they do and are good too... :)

there martha you feel a bit better represented now?
Hope so... love you ... mom. :)

5 comments:

Paxie Panicker said...

Well shucks, as a Mom, I KNEW that LOL :)

TonjiaT said...

I know and completely understand why you do what you do....... Love

You said it. Unconditional love.

As a mom I know we all get frustrated now and then, especially when our kids do things that we dont agree with, but have no fear Laura, in the end, its all about the fact that we brought these babies into the world and we are so in love with them that we give when we probably shouldnt. I think thats ok. Thats why God made mothers...

Emmie said...

Motherhood: Interesting concept...attempted breakin...unsuccessful-therefore only a comment. Mom and Readers please understand it is not a misrepresentation that infuriates me-it's the simple face that I (also as a mom) go to school everyday, work every night...damn near all night. clean when i can which doesnt make a bit of difference in my hell hole of a home-which btw Ma is much warmer now :) and am doing my best to thank EVERYONE for their help inclucding my parents and the 24 hours in the day are gone-sleep is nonexistant. Im tired of being preached to as if i just sit around on my ass all day everyday with no goals, like i dont want better for my family? like im not doing everything in MY power (that does NOT INCLUDE MIKES POWER-ILL LEAVE HIM OUT OF THIS ONE FOR THE SAKE OF OUR RELATIONSHIP)to make OUR (as in my and Halo's) life better and more. So i can give to her like i have been given to. Regardless of popular opinion and i do mean OPINION--->I am doing my VERY BEST. you all are well aware that my mom is a VERY busy woman...we're more alike than i wish to admit-if it wasn't for school i would never be on the computer long enough to even read this much less respond. When i finally do get a day off work: it's pointless because there is so much built up to be done that there is still no rest.
Motherhood--->post coming soon about that one- i have some venting of my own to be done...you guys simply would not believe the story. sadly-it's a true one.
Ilove you mommy.
MJ

Bluebird49 said...

I know your life is very busy with school, Martha, and with work, and it's very admirable --you working to keep your rent and power bilss paid. I know--becuase you have lived with your brother and Stephanie now, that you're aware of how much more work a baby is--and Bradley isn't a newborn.

I'm sure, if you're as much like your mom as you say, you will be up to the task!! I hope you love her as much as she loves you --unconditionally--a perfect picture of Our Father's love from Heaven!!

Mental P Mama said...

You are awesome.