Monday, February 28, 2011

thoughts from a jumbled mind...

it's Monday again and as usual I have a bazillion things jumping around inside my head over a weeks worth actually ... HAVE MERCY...

I have been reluctant to post some things about Martha and her choices for several reasons...

1. no matter if it is good bad or other wise she will take it wrong and, she does on occasion read here when she has computer acess at school.... I dont think computers are allowed in ISS (in school suspension)however and apparently that is where she plans to finish out the school year... she has a number of days ISS for tardies, and like today... shes tardy again ... It irritates me that she comes in here over a week ago announces she will be here by 720 daily so that she will make it to school on time... and has made it ONCE by 720 to my house but she still did not make it to school on time.  WHY DO I BOTHER???

2. after my last post dealing with martha she left a pretty nasty comment then deleted it, I still got the comment and the other that she deleted as they all come to my email.  but anyway the comment showed me just how immature and unready my child is to be out and about in the "real world" and I decided that in trying to help her because I KNOW she reads my blog that maybe I would give the saying nothing approach the good old college try and see if that made a difference... so far... no :(    

just so you know martha  I am sorry I have failed you as a parent, you are a strong and  hard headed young woman but, somehow  some where in all that I FAILED misrably in teaching you when and where that is best used.  I pray that you get all you are desiring and that when you do you recognise it for what it is.  and I pray that you someday see that all I have tried to tell you teach you and show you has been for your good not to harm or hurt you.  

anyway enough on this subject for now.

* just got a text which pisses me off totally, saying I am real sorry Halos not coming today,  gee  have been up an hour waiting you could have told me this last night.

Since many of you brave readers of my blog also are my friends on facebook you have already seen this, and you know about my food porn album...  I "borrowed" the food porn idea from Marlene (if i manage to recall how to link I will link through her name to her blog) anyway I often wondered WHY I chose to do this little thing and my hubby without realising it explained it to me last night.  SEE its like this Michael and I have a strange relationship we have this bizzare way of complementing certian things and food that I cook is not left out of this bizzare ritual.  I don't know when or how it started but, I have always been interested in cooking and trying to figure out how my mother made the things I loved to eat as a child.  My mother could never be bothered with teaching me, she says I was never interested and to some extent I think she is right.  My childhood memories are pretty hard ones and If I was at home I was made to work (theres nothing wrong with working mind you but, I was used as unpaid un thanked labor who was beat when I did not do as expected)  so I stayed gone from the house as much as possible off in the woods or out finding someone to play with in the neighborhood. but I digress sorry, anyway what he does when he really really likes something he will say, "this is the worst thing I ever ate you need to keep practicing"  or he will say, "I am going to have to eat this to prevent anyone else from suffering"  to which I will apologise and promise to keep making it and try to find a way to improve on it. 
So saturday morning I was on the phone with my cousin Beth (shes in the pic on my header) and we were chatting away and she talked about how much she enjoyed the puff pasteries I had made when she was here, which made me realise I was hungry and wanted puffs.... so I took out the stuff to make them and while chatting with her I did.  I was a bit impatient with the pastry and it was not totally thawed correctly so they turned into these HUGE pastries instead of the cute smaller triangles they usually are, and of course another standing joke around here.... "is this food porn or is this just regular food?"

 the far left is bacon and cheddar cheese bites the other two are bacon egg and cheese puffs...So I ask you is this food porn or just regular food?
 Michaels plate looks like mine ...very FULL lol... oh and back to the realisation I came to.... Quite some time ago I cooked something, for the life of me I cant recall what exactly it was but what ever it was it brought on this totally unexpected and totally unaware on my part series of MOANS while consuming it... and apparently it was so annoying that Michael had something to say about the moans at the table... SO....I think that is why I decided to do food porn *unconsiously of course*  the other reason was simply because I thought it was cute and fun to photograph things I had cooked to share with others.
this is the left overs that we absolutely could not eat... Bradley and I shared one yesterday for breakfast and there is still one in the fridge.... so ANYWAY Last night I cooked something I have not cooked in a long time... something that Michael and I love Its not the prettiest dish and not one that many really love and I totally forgot to take pictures.... but anyway I made chicken gizzards (fried), rice, and pan gravy and some corn from the sweet corn that Michael had brought home last summer.

WHEN MICHAEL MOANED I REALISED WHY I HAVE FOOD PORN!!!!!!!!!!! I looked over at him and BURST OUT LAUGHING... I said, " do my ears decieve me ??? did I really hear a moan from you?"  to which he smiled took another bite and said, "you must have been hearing things."  and proceeded to try to kill himself by eating as many as he could. 

I just realised that I have  been neglegent on photographing Bradley and Halo this week as I have no NEW pics to share so this one has to do as it is Bradley personified... the  little shit had to be spanked a few times this weekend.  He is deep into the testing of EVERYTHING and time out has not left an impression YET, we still try it first but eventually enough is enough and his attention has to be gained and a pop to the diapered butt seems to gain that attention.
he likes to BANG the cabinet doors and he KNOWS it makes his papa angry, so he stood there banging them was moved to time out for 3.4 seconds told not to bang the doors and went right back to banging them even harder... so POP!   he stopped banging the doors.

THEN later on he decided that my shelves of VHS movies were no longer off limits,  and after being sat in time out again for 3.4 seconds cause he tried to run ASAP... he went back and decided to throw them on the floor,  well there are 300 plus of them and that is simply not acceptable so when he decided to run from me with one in his hand POP!  he has not messed with them again (yet)

THEN.... Bradley loves Popscicles he has ever since he started cutting teeth and I have had a bunch in the freezer for several years... you know the kind popice I think they are called the long skinny plastic tubes.... anyway  I have always made him sit on my lap and I will tear off the plastic as he consumes them because a baby trying to grasp the understanding of pushing up the frozen treat is well simply not there.... and he knows the ritual well... so yesterday he decided to squeeze the pop and see how far he could shoot the ice...after about three times I took the popice from him and told him last chance or it goes in the trash to which he looked me dead in the eyes said something in bradleyese and threw it across the room... well POP goes his butt and into the trash goes the pop ice... you would think I had tried to murder him with the screaming he did...but he wont be doing that trick again... for a while I don't think.

When his parents got here to pick him up Cory was asking me if he had done the dump the cup routein for me yet... then demonstrated it.... God I wish I had video of that it was hysterical, he said he will stand there look you dead in the eye GRIN like that pic above then dump the cup... I said nope he has not tried that one yet, but we also don't give him cups without a lid yet either.

Michael has been working out front more, he is now working on building me a flower bed across the front, I have had one there for years but this one will be ummm perminant... as Michael can't do anything half assed it might take forever but when it is done well lets just say I pity the person who one day decided to tear it down or move it because as my brother in law used to say ... I HATE trying to take apart anything Mike Hall built. 
  I apologise in advance this it going to turn into a LONG post as I just went outside walked around the yard and took a bunch of pics to share :)

this is the view from the bottom of the stairs  (duh like you could not tell that) the gate is deceptively simple yet hard as heck to get the latch to open.  which is a good thing with the BADLEY!
 remember you can click to embiggen all pics :)  the starts of my flower bed... must get shade loving plants as this side does not get much sun.
 he ran out of mortar mix and HAD to stop.  But I like where it is going, We are debating on painting the blocks to match the shades of Georgia Gray that the house and porch is.
 the dirt hill is sprouting grass and weeds ... have I mentioned that the weather has been to die for here ... breaking all records with the highs... 83 yesterday... I have mixed emotions on that as if it is 83 in Feb. what the heck is it gonna be in June July Aug and Sept... HOTTER THAN HELL I suspect.
 the view from the mail box.... one day SOON the entire roof will be done but for now that is an unfinished project.... have I ever mentioned that when you are married to a carpenter/ jack of all trades that you live in a continuing project that is NEVER done???
 talked to my aunt last night she asked if things were greening up... I said not much but, as usual I am wrong, We have not cleared off the old leaves yet as it has been either too cold, to windy, to wet or too something so we have about two months to get the yard blown / raked/ burned before the county burn ban is in effect. (May 1st)   this flower (not sure exactly what it is) comes up over at the edge of the woods every year and I forget its back there unless I am back there for something so I made a special trip to see what it is up to so I can show it to you.
 We think that possibly my sister in law planted them back there YEARS ago when she was here visiting shes a plant freak and knows more about them than anyone I know but, I can only deal with her in small doses... love her but... you know how that goes.
 I think maybe it is a daffodil but not sure...will have to check on it in a day or so and see what it looks like when it blooms.  Below are the iris' that karen sent me last year... no two years ago, last year ONE purple one bloomed and I was afraid that the hard freezes we had this winter might have hurt them but apparently they are coming right on back ... I hope they ALL bloom this year I am excited to see what colors I ended up with ... Iris' are my FAVORITE flowers!
 and Oh my how my babies have grown!!! Lucky in the middle had more than doubled over the winter and he is getting orange spots!  He is a mixed breed fish and the ONLY one to be born here and survive.  he has the most beautiful HUGE fan tail  and when he is all stretched out its nearly as long as his body.... YES that is a power cord above them, we had to replace the big waterfall pump a few weeks back and this new pump has a much shorter cord than the old one... the old one would lay across the bottom of the pond .annoying in pics but the fish love to rub on it...

the fish appear to be playing ring around the lucky... nugget has his head under diamonds  tail and diamond is following Bogie (on top with his face showing) is following nugget LOL... Bullet,  Emma ,and Gizmo could not be bothered with these fishy games.

Well with all that said I am sure I have more drivel to bore you with but since I do NOT have Halo today there are some things I need to go out into the world and take care of... One is heading to sears and getting a new leaf blower.  our old ones are simply worn out and they are so affordable it will be cheaper in the long run to buy a new one than pay the cost to repair the two old ones... who knows I might just get two new ones!  and I need to make a trip over to Trenton, South Carolina to my friend Sue's and pick up Beths Quilt that Sue has had done for quite some time now... hers is sunflowers and I cant wait to see it I know it is BEAUTIFUL will take pics when I have it to show you.  My aunt made me one that is Iris's and it lives on my bed these works of are are so amazing and totally hand made which means they take YEARS to complete. 

anyway Thanks for visiting and hope you enjoyed my blathering today and cant wait to go see whats happening in all of your corners of the world


Ellen said...

Wow! What a post.

Sorry to hear that Martha is not taking care of business - one day when she's really mature, she'll realize how immature she was when she thought she was mature.

Love your garden bed in progress. I vote to paint i gray - it will look fab with green and flowers.

I have to laugh when you talk about giving Bradley a smack - my mom always reminded the grandchildren that she's the grandmom that hits - she wouldn't take crap or sass from any of the grand children - a little tap on the bottom never hurt us and it wasn't going to hurt them either. Besides, time-outs are a waste of time in my opinion - not enough consequence for one's action.

Have a wonderful day. Hang in there.

TSannie said...

Love that second paragraph Ellen wrote! And it will come to pass. Might take a while, but it WILL happen!

That looks like a daffodil to me!

Alice said...

What you wrote about Bradley...could have been written about Austin, too. Lord, he is testing me right now...and it's been tough. :)

Keeping MJ in our prayers. She's a beautiful, smart girl and will figure things out. Keep all these post to show her when Halo is her age and driving her ape-shit crazy. :)

Love to you all.

Memaw's memories said...

I've been amazed to see how smart I was when my children were small only to become the dumbest person alive when they are teens and young adults. Now that they are all married with children of their own, it's amazing how smart I have once again become. Hopefully, MJ will soon realize that you didn't fall off the turnip truck yesterday.

I have to tell you about a friend of mine and I. We also do the thing with whatever the other cooks by saying something like, 'This isn't fit to eat'. One day my son was at my house doing some work(yes, he's a carpenter too) and she brought something over for me to sample. I made my usual comment that it wasn't fit to eat, and my son stopped what he was doing and said, MOMMMMMM, how rude! Of course my friend and I burst out laughing.

My daughter-in-law says she lives in a construction site. They build a new house, he never quite finishes it, and it pretty much stays that way until they get ready to put it on the market. I told her that her biggest mistake was getting in too big a hurry to move in.

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Bluebird49 said...

Sigh also.

You know, Laura--if you weren't smart enough to raise two kids---are you sure you're competent to raise two grandchildren. ;)

I so wish school was over!

TonjiaT said...

on my way to work, but I had to stop in to see how things were going on your side of the world.

I LOVE your food porn, and I think it is so adorable how Michael has to eat it all to save the rest of us. LOLOL

you guys crack me up.

One thing, from one mom to another, you have done your absolute very best with your children, dont ever think that you have failed them at all. Your love and caring proves that you have done all that you can.

Martha has a brain, she makes her own decisions and even though they may not be what you would like for her to choose, she owns them. Sometimes, we have to step back and let our kids make their own choices, some are going to be good, some not so good. Hang in there Laura, give those grandbabies love and hug your girl when you can. Some day you will both look back on this time and smile. God is watching over her always...

gotta run! hugs!!

Paxie said...

I flat out totally agree with Tonjia. Bad Mom? Would you quit it? Please. MJ is making choices and she needs to deal with the consequences. Period.

You've done your best. Amazing you can be such an idiot and both kids trust their kids with you. Right.

Love you and hang in there Food Porn Queen!!

farmlady said...

I think MJ is the one that needs a "Pop" on the butt.... but I was taught that if I didn't have something nice to say, not to say anything. I will leave it at that.

No... I won't. MJ just had a baby, Right? Halo is her child. Right? You are taking care of this child so she can go to school. Right? and she's still giving you all this $#*T!.
I'm sorry Peach. I love ya, but the reason you're not getting comments from me is because I'm having a hard time with "the daughter" and her behavior. I worry about Halo. I'm seeing red here, so you may not hear from me much.
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