I have a HUGE case of the blahs...I know part of it is simply being tired, and sick of being in pain. My knee has been a pain for more than a month now and simply does not seem to ever get better. Then Sunday my lower back decided to join in the pain game which I am sure is from 1900 miles of driving just after 1850 miles of driving less than a month ago.
It is a beautiful day here, 67 degrees with a wonderful breeze and I have all the windows open but, I should be out buy plants and getting them in the ground.
I have come to the realisation that I am not 24 any more and doing things with babies simply drains me.
I love keeping the grandbabies but, I am totally limited as to what and when I can do things even around the house and that frustrates me as I have always done just about what I want when I want.
Some days I really would just like to be a normal grandma and see my grand kids for an hour or two then have them over when I WANT. Instead I have them 6 days a week (one or the other or both) but, I am relucant to say anything to my kids because they will not understand and will feel like I dont want to keep the babies. I do want to keep them I love keeping them I just wish I had the energy and patience I used to have.
I hate having to lie to mom about Halo and having to play the secret games with her on so many things, Yet to keep peace I have to ... and where my mother is concerned peace is important.
This pic is of her and her favorite Aid, Nikki, is great with mom and I am really glad she is there.
well i am trying to get out of the blah blah mood and get some things accomplished around here.
Have a wonderful Tuesday.
God Bless you and keep you Till we meet again.