Friday, November 26, 2010

Life-as I know it.

1st Hijack. Emjay here--->
(regardless of the vote I am a smart chick and I will find a way to make things happen)
So To My Mom:
You're the best. The absolute most awesome terrific kind hearted loving fixer upper in this universe. You pull me and my brother through everything, everything you're capable of that is... I apologize for sticking you in the middle. I need to step back and really reassure myelf that the man I am fighting for is worth it--->because a year into this mess...I don't feel like I'm worth it to him, or that he would fight this battle for me if the tables were turned. You, of all people, do not deserve to be treated the way that ANY of us treat you. From Cory, whom you still take care of, and his son whom you take care of and probably always will. To ME, whom you take back and forth and all over-you feed-you pray for and do for and my child whom you will take care of also. TO Dad, who puts you between us and forces you to choose between your children and your husband...None of this is fair-  
I, on behalf of us all-weather they know, like it or don't, apologize to you. You deserve better people in your life than the people we are, and the people we're becoming.
Forgive me.
That's all I have right now, I'm all out of tears and whatnot. Happy holidays everyone, hopefully someone somewhere will see us and remember us and know that the way WE have done things is WRONG.
LEARN FROM US.
Mama's don't let your babies grow up to be anything like your spouse- it ain't easy. 
I love you mama.
Martha Jean

4 comments:

Laura~peach~ said...

that orange is hard to read... thank you...BRAT.
I love you too.

Paxie Panicker said...

Well golly...never to late to change! Glad you appreciate your Mom. Now show her, okay? In your actions and choices and make her proud.

Mental P Mama said...

Wow. Our little girl is growing up. Many blessings to you all.

Flea said...

Oh my. Please don't let these be just words, MJ. We love you. All families are messed up. Lots of kids climb out and become whole people. Your mom did it. You can too.