Thursday, November 25, 2010

bah humbug

went to bed late in hopes of sleeping in... 5 30 was up decided to start cooking, got ham in the oven, dressing in the crock pot, sweet potato casserole in the other crock pot, made the cheese cakes yesterday, chopped the cheese yesterday, so have turkey to put in the rotesserie around 9 and corn and beans to start later and of course mac and cheese and deviled eggs yet to come as well oh and gravy....

MJ you are not locked out the stupid password is the same as the old blog, you know I dont have many variations on passwords... its too hard to remember them all.

Hope everyone has a Happy Thanksgiving and good food and family and....

NOW comes my vent session my bitch session my total resentment dumping so if you want to stay happy stop reading here....
you have been warned things are gonna get ugly .....

ok if you did not stop reading....
you need to know I really do not like the HOLIDAYS....

I have never liked the holidays... they suck for me.

I love to cook yeah, so I dont mind the cooking there is nothing special that I cook just for the holidays there is just more of it... so more work for me...

The reasons I hate the holidays are many so I guess I will just list my grieveances
1. my family is so spread out, and even if they were close together they would never be together.
2. I am always stuck in the middle playing peacemaker
3. I love selfish people ... as in my husband my kids my parents my in laws my out laws ...
4. I despise the commercialism of the holidays... Christmas crap was out before  halloween was over that sucks.
5. I am taken for granted and am abused regularly.

I am to the point that I  hate the preparing and planning for a day that I know my family, the selfish assholes that I love, wont be together and I pray that the day come and go as quickly and peacefully as possible.

I hate knowing that there are people out there who wont have anything to eat or a place to stay.  It makes me feel sick knowing that I will have more than we can ever eat and even after days of eating on what is cooked much will go out for the wild animals to eat.

and I think most of all I am sick of everyone telling me how they feel and how they think I should feel or act,  and with that I mostly mean my husband and my daughter.  I am sick of being the buffer between them and listening to them both tell me how right they are and how wrong the other is because in truth they both have valid points and to some degree both are correct.  THEY ARE JUST ALIKE.  Hardheaded assholes who would not give an inch. 

I think I am most lonely around the holidays and even in a house with people in it I feel alone... thats my issue to work out...

and for now this is all I have to say... there is a lot more floating around in my head but, I am reluctant to share it right now when I should be counting my  many blessings....

1. I have food
2. I have a roof over my head
3. I have the means to pay the bills *even if some are late at times*
4. I have Bradley and will soon have Halo, and they are easy for now because they dont have snakes in their heads.
5.I have YOU the people who come read this drivel and actually come back... God Bless you all.
Happy Thanksgiving :)

9 comments:

Mental P Mama said...

I think we need to start a collection for the Peach Vacation Fund....Have a Happy Day;)

Paxie Panicker said...

You can't bah humbug on Thanksgiving...maybe GAH BIRD or something.

I hope today goes just "peachy" for you hon and I agree..Vacation fund!

Happy Thanksgiving :)

Tiggeriffic said...

I think my hair's on fire after reading all of this.. I feel bad for you and wish it could be better for you.. If wishes were horses we would all take a ride...I'll just pray for you..that is all I can do.. Vent if you want it's good for you...doesn't change anything but at least someone is listening and it's outside floating in the air and not bottled up inside of you.
Have a Blessed Thanksgiving~! send me your name and address to annieptigger@aol.com and I'll get the Infusion Shampoo/Conditioner dog shampoo and send it to you. I'll do it after Thanksgiving and I'm back home.. We are going to son's house in Barrington, Illinois today..Be back on sunday.. I can hardly wait.. All the children will be there and it will be joyous...lots of hugs and kisses...
Ta Ta For Now....from Iowa. annieptigger@aol.com
19 degrees this morning and baby it's cold outside... but sunny.

Grandma Tillie's Bakery said...

{{{BIG HIG}}} I had a period of time like this awhile back--I know exactly what you mean when you say you feel alone even with people around. Wanna know a secret? The best thing you can do to make things a little better is to say NO sometimes. Even if someone is going to scream and holler and pitch a fit, just say NO. Trust me--you need to do this.

Have a Happy Thanksgiving sweet Peach :-)

Grandma Tillie's Bakery said...

Sorry--supposed to read BIG HUG, LOL

MJ said...

well am here to preach as usual, well actually i think i may try to break in and preach-hold that comment a moment please*

MJ said...

welp am back-will preach as soon i can find a break in code- i do believe its the email not the password that's the problem-its not your msn or your charter or a hotmail---therefore i am at a loss-it cant be your yahoo because thats the email for the first one-ack-figure me out please...hijacking coming soon
Happy turkey day everyone
BTW work sucked-did not make bank tonight and still didnt get to see the fam or mike...was awful. damn teenagers stiffed me 4 fn times tonight-*note to all-if you dont have the money-get fast food-youre messin with my income*
anywayslove to all and my complaint probably shouldnt exist because i still made 250 in a matter of less than a 7 day week...
Loves you mom
Emjay

Angela said...

I think I am most lonely around the holidays and even in a house with people in it I feel alone... thats my issue to work out...

That comment really got me...I can so relate to that. I even wrote about it in my journal the other day...still working it out...((hugs))

Bluebird49 said...

Just remember, Laura--you and Mike (YOUR MIKE)have been through a lot together, and although he's not into this thing with MJ---you and he will hopefully be together a long,long time. One day--those kids will be "grown" and off somewhere, and even the grandchildren will be grown.

My husband and I tell each other all the time--it's just us--when it comes down to it. We have a wonderful son and his family, we had a beautiful, wonderful, kind daughter who passed away 12 years ago at 31. So we know--when it comes down to it--it's the two of us.

I know you're torn, but it won't always be this way. It just feels like it will!