Its wednesday.... who knew

I am not really liking this new blogger set up, I know its supposed to be so much easier and more organised but, to me its a royal pain in the butt.  I will adjust eventually but for now not liking it so much...

I had a moment last night where I was watching Michael playing with Halo where I had to wonder what others find the most appealing in a man... I do believe I found it in Michael ...
the photo speaks for itself.

Have a blessed day, God bless you and keep you until we meet again.

wow now i must learn this new thing.... it will be ok
In time.

mike has built the kids a new play area that sits between the pond and where the pool will be... I LOVE IT, the kids love it. Halo fights to stay out side. 
Bradley does too.
We are all well and I will eventually get back into blogging right now i am simply uninspired so taking an obvious break.
love n hugs
God bless you and keep you :)

Im sorry

I have had to put the word verifications back on as the spam comments are over the top...

Hope everyone has a wonderful Easter.

HE IS RISEN!!!!!!

need to clarify... again.

I feel the need to clarify ... again.

I have had the enlightening moment of realising that I am my own worst enemy.

I have always been one to put it all out there, I don't have many secrets, in fact there are maybe 2 that Iwill never tell anyone... but those are my business.... other than those things I pretty much don't have an off limits button. 
HOWEVER, I have been made to realise and understand that I dont always paint the WHOLE picture and because this is a public blog, sometimes the picture is cloudy or unclear and therefore people who do care and who follow dont get it.  
I am sorry because that is my fault because at times I am single minded in what I am writing and therefore can become confusing to the ones who have stuck around and read.  (thank you to those who have stuck by me I hope you continue to because you are an important part of my life)

All that being said ...
this is who I am...
I am a happy, easygoing, laid back, caregiver.   I give my all when taking care of others... which is all of the time be it  family, friends, complete strangers, or patients.  I do at times neglect me.  and in doing that on occasion I get frustrated and aggrivated, but I have an outlet that I learned many many years ago and it works for me. 

way back in the days of old I kept a daily log, diary if you will, that I started when I was 17... It was a suggestion from a friend who was teaching me how to live... It started off as something simple called a gratitude list... each day I was to Thank God, and to list the things Iwas thankful for... Lemmie tell you in the beginning  there were many times that the ONLY thing I could write was THANK YOU GOD THAT THIS DAMN DAY IS DONE... in my most sarcastic writing of a 17 yr old mind.

In fact when I go back and read it I am quite amazed and how simple my life was back in the day... but thats not my point.  my point is that I wrote about life the good, the bad, the ugly and I learned that by writing it down I could LET IT GO and be ready to start fresh with a clean slate so to speak the next day, the next minute, hour, what ever it happend to be.

When I was in College one of my first classes (one of the best classes) and one that I totally remember, was an intro to college class, that teachers class should have been called teaching us how to live because that is in essence what she was doing.   Anyway She brought back to me something I had stopped because life with a baby had placed it on the back burner.  She made us journal... :)  

So many years back when life was more than I could bear someone, Beckie I think, told me about yahoo blogs and I was hooked for a couple reasons...

1. life was so overwhelming at the time I did not have time to process my feelings and emotions so I figured I would write about them and go back later and work through them.
2. I could add pictures to my writing!! a secret passion with the advent of affordable digital cameras.
LATER  came the wonderful thing that blogging has that nothing else does...FEEDBACK!!!

which brings me back to the reason for this post,  With feedback comes some wonderful things... others thoughts, ideas, advice, and most important to me, SUPPORT !

However, Several times I have VENTED, I am a certified venter by the way... when things are bad I vent about them, then I can let them GO and move on to the better things in life.  HOWEVER, I tend to forget that when I am venting I am not always very clear because my head is going 500 miles a second and my fingers simply cant keep up so a lot gets left out and you my dear SUPPORT group do not get the WHOLE picture.  FOR THAT I APOLOGISE.

Anyway back to the point of this post, I promise in the future to attempt to paint a clearer picture when I am venting and will warn you in advance that any given post is strictly a VENT SESSION. 

All that being said, I hope you all have a beautiful wonderful day and may God bless you and keep you until we meet again! 

bits of this and that...

I have realised i have not taken or posted any pics lately, with the death of the droid and reversion to the lg and impatiently waiting on the new droid to arrive.. I have not taken many pics.  I do apologise.

My friend Susan has a picture of this kid of eggs from pintrest on her facebook page (I do not do pintrest) I dont have time to add yet another thing to my schedule... but anyway I had to try to make these... and so I did and they were fun and purty and yummy!

 Halo was not happy to not be the center of attention... so she got my attention and a few pics of herself in the process... shes a pretty , happy, rotten  little thing :)

 She has tude... in so many ways is so like her mother , yet totally her own person too.  and yes she LOOKS just like her mother only her mother was a cotton head at this age.

 she is still a very, dont know the word i want... but Bradley Martha Cory were all very smiley  all the time babies ... not her.  so when she does finally smile and laugh it is a big deal... she still sometimes acts a bit confused not scared really when we have a big belly laugh like at a stupid movie or something.

 the other day, I had to laugh, Bradley runs around pantless, Halo shirtless... she woudl go nakie if I would let her... i am not at all suprised Cory ran in a t shirt for a couple years no pants especially during potty training time and martha was little houdini trying to keep clothing on her was insanely hard ... when its time to dress halo she has a pure laying screaming kicking fit....then once they are on shes fine... and on rare occasions she is ok with being dressed but most of the time ... its a battlefield (and I WIN)

 I have realised that my eye though seemingly stable is causing some of ,my pictures to be blurry (part is i need to take some classes on how to use my camera) but the other part is it looks right to me when i take it... but on the computer i see how far off It really is.  anyway... this is halo when ever I am trying to do anything.... I get you mawmaw.... and she comes wanting to be picked up to be a part of what ever I am doing or to plop in my lap or just be close ...

 Bradley balanced a ring on his head... she was amazed!

 She has this SWAGGER for lack of a better term it is HYSTERICAL to watch her when she has it going on her little shoulders swing from side to side and those legs stomp and her hips waggle it... totally cracks me up

 not exactly sure what this was about but thought it is classic!  lol

 she has about 5 play phones and her mothers old lg phone she is constantly on one of them jabbering away...

she keeps us laughing and shaking our heads... martha says it wont be long till they come get her... I am torn with that.. I know in my head she needs to be with her parents, and late at night when I am exhausted and she is wide open I really reallly want her to be with her parents, have toyed with the thought of drop kicking her to them for a brief second or two .... but then she wraps those itty arms around my neck and the thought passes....but thing is this... if they take her back to florida now with them then she will be spending a lot of time with a stranger who happens to be one of marthas best friends aunt (i am very glad that this woman lives there dont get me wrong) but she is still a stranger to a very attached to grandma little girl...and Halo is at the magical age where she is learning what is safe what is not and testing the waters in every way and knows that when things scare her or she needs reassurance that grandma is there.  For that alone i wish they would leave her a few more months.... that and martha needs to take advantage of the situation and get the money made to get her drivers liscense straight and a car before she ends up in flipping jail!  GAH.I have talked to her at length about it... and shes on the fence she misses halo... which i tell her is totally natural and halo misses her too but halo is young enough that when the time comes if martha is better ready and suited to give her the life she needs and deserves that halo wont be as upset at missing a few months with her parents and staying with her grandparents.   if that makes sense at all... it does to me... maybe i am rationalizing but, I want martha and mike to be able to do right by this child and to be able to drive without the fear of going to jail for driving without a liscense and ect ect plus them being over 8 hours away... well... that stinks but is life.

i have had some issues with my arms and hands... still am... they are numb and tingeling all the time now... dr said could be neuropathy could be carpal tunnel could be from the meds could be this could be that.... GAH drives me crazier... whats even crazier is dr did labs vit d was high (i was taking 50,000 Iud a day to get it up so not taking that for now.)   everything ELSE vites minerals all high normals!  very unusual for me but makes me happy!  

i am sure there is a lot more that is floating around in my head but my hands are saying they have had enough and the typos I am having to correct are sendign me over the top... so for now this is all.... may God bless you an keep you till we meet again.

Wednesday again already.

WOW time keeps on flying on by its crazy ...
it seems like i Blink once and another week has shot by and I missed it or something.
Halo is feeling much better, I had to laugh at her last night, her mother was texting me when she got off work so I decided to just call and see what Halo would do... she got on my lap and took over the phone talking to her momma, what was funny was her body language, she crossed her feet and had those toes going 90 miles and hour as she told her momma all shes been doing, then she hung up because she loves to mash buttons but promptly called her right back .... then tried to call and text a dozen other people. 
and of course when she hung up the third time I took my phone and she had a complete hissy fit which included throwing down in the floor holding her breath kicking and screaming so she got her jammers on and was put to bed where she crashed out! 

Bradley has some sharing issues he is at the stage where everything IS MINE!  and gets into some trouble taking things from halo, she is quick though and has learned that if she has something to run to grandma or papa and to get there fast the whole time either saying NONO NO or humm how do you spell it??? ut uhhh she reminds me of the kid on little rascals... uh huh only shes uh uhh

They are really too cute together and very busy... they keep me TIRED!

This new medicine the endocrine dr put me on seems to be doing ok I had one episode where it made me sick to my stomach... at least i think it was the med but that has not happened since.  I takes my appetite away but WHEN i do get hungry look out there best be something close by to eat right then or I get rather ill. the HUGE thing is I never know what i want (that was part of my problem before) now it is even worse.   I read a little cute thing that said if stress caused weight loss I would be a toothpick... well dang if thats not true.

I went by the local verizon store the other day... what a joke... they did not have ANYTHING i was interested in in the store and had no idea when they would... michael said you are going to have to go to the augusta store... I might get brave and do that today with halo... the augusta stores are always so dang crouded and the waits are forever... sigh

I am blathering on really about nothing procrastinating on getting halo up.... I have had my shower and well into my third cup of coffee. ;)   so Iguess i might as well suck it up and get going.
Hope you all have a wonderful 1st day of spring... it has skipped straight into summer here!  GAH!
God bless you and keep you till we meet again!

Sunday march 18th

Welp another week has FLOWN by, 
The low country boil was delish, but to me not as good as the last one... I was having stove issues and getting a bottle filled just did not happen in time to cook outside.
Halo is off visiting her other grandparents and should be home in a bit. :) miss the stinker but the house is clean again for a few minutes.
Michael and I discussed the phones issues and decided that we will go back through verizon and get new contracts.  His old phone is slowly dying hes only had it 12 years or so.... and since the last child will be  off our phones the end of april we can get a lower rate plan and do just fine, and since in my old age I am becoming more and more ummmm accident prone insurance on MY phone is a necessity...
who knows i might even get a little bit of trade in on my dead droid and back up phone LOL... sigh
seems like I had all kinds of stuff to chat about but, I dont recall now what it was so ... Hope you all have a wonderful Sunday and may God bless you and keep you until we meet again!