RIP grandma...

My Grandma Muse Passed Away this morning, Even though you expect it, you know its coming, you think you are prepared for it... You aren't.  
this is one of my most Favorite pics of my Grandma and Grandpa, it was taken sometime before or maybe after I was born and I found it in some of my mothers stuff a few years back. 
Grandma was 95 years old she would have been 96 in may.  What really sucks is that dementia had stolen her from us a long time ago. 

Anyway Am torn on driving up there... it is 800 miles one way... I would love for Michael to come with.  Both kids have already said Go ... that they will be ok with getting someone to watch their kids.  which makes me happy and sad all in one... cause I love keeping my grandmas GREAT GREAT Grandchildren.   They were the only 2 Great Greats and unfortunately Grandma never knew them... when I saw her last time Martha was 15 and Grandma had a hard time keeping straight that I had Kids MUCH LESS one 15 and one 19 at the time.  
I have wonderful memories of times with my grandma and grandpa (he passed a long time ago) 18 or 19 years cant recall which.... anyway have wonderful memories of staying with them every summer for at least two weeks if not longer and playing on the farm and in the creek and pond and barns... I have had so many stories told on me that Grandma loved to tell and she would just laugh and laugh because I embarrassed her so badly. 
See Grandma lives in Amish country and when I was very little I started talking... PLAIN LOUD GROWN UP TALK!   and she tells that is was around halloween and we were in Young's Grocery and an Amish woman was in front of us...she said I asked her (loud and clear enough for EVERYONE TO HEAR, of course) if that woman was a witch??? which in a small country store where everyone knows your business before you do... well she was mortified LOL. 

anyway the great debate is on... do I go or dont I ... I thought I had decided not to go... but I WANT to go... sigh....
flying is not an option, I would go NUTS without my ride and renting is insane ... but i have thought about it ... I flew up when my uncle died.

CHECKED ON FLIGHTS, WILL COST MORE THAN DOUBLE TO FLY RENT AND MOTEL COMAPIRED TO DRIVING... SO I WILL DRIVE.