Sunday, August 28, 2011

thank you ladies!

you know I have the most wonderful BLISTERS (term borrowed from daryl or lauren or someone but I love it) anyway thank you ladies for being here for reading my blathering my complaints, my dull life, the exciting, the drama ,the down right crazy....

some of you know more details than others and its ok, those who know less are less traumatised I am sure....
Michael and I have talked adnausieum about the situation I put us in, and realised in the talking about it just how deeply in shock we were from it  all...  apparently we all have some dysfunctional people in our lives and just how deeply involved with them we are varies... but , we have come to believe that I am a magnet for the sick twisted and insane in all areas of life.

And, for some reason I think I can help them and apparently they think so too as they show up here, I mean seriously the neighbors dog took up here for 7 years or more, Hank the cat who has meowed so much he no longer sounds like a tom cat but like a frog someone has stepped on and STILL after all these years will attack and scratch and bite me out of the blue yet he seems to think I am his person... my kids, my parents my bio parents my siblings... the list goes on and on....

BUT, I am a forgiving person,  and even though bits of trauma jump up out of the blue and smack me.  I forgive her for the last three months of insanity... I still love her... and to a VERY slim extent would try to help her in the future.  I wish her well, I hope she is finally where she needs to be and I hope that she lives a long happy life...

see I do know that I allowed this to happen because, it was me who not only invited her to come stay here to try to help her get back on her feet to help her figure out what and where she wanted and needed to be but, I also provided the MEANS as in money for her to get here, and money to help her while she was here... I did try to do it in exchange for something that she claimed ment something to her and I still have the something and maybe someday she will want it back and will send me the aggreed upon amount of money... but IF YOU ARE READING THIS SISTER there is a ONE YEAR time limit on that then I will give them to someone who you have something of hers something that means something to her... because you see NEITHER Item is worth much money it is the sentimental value that matters. 

Sorry had to let that information out as I know she used to stalk my blog and since she has deleted my entire family from her life and deleted any way we had to contact her ... well this is my way of letting her know...

anyway back to my fault in all of this mess... you need to know my blisters that I have apologised to my husband many times over the last three months and he has assured me that I did no wrong in this situation that I did all I could to try to help.  We provided a safe home, food, electricity, the van, the truck, repairs to her car, emotional support as best we could and that was not accepted... some bizzare things apparently were expected and when they were not given then we were shut out and honest thats really ok....

to my lovely daughter  and son... I still have to smile as I replay the words you said to me last Thursday afternoon... and I totally accept them... Yes, YOU TOLD ME SO... :)   enjoy them as you WILL NOT get to use them on me too  often... and for what its worth your brother made sure to say I TOLD YOU SO MAMA as well... in spite of all of the crazy sometimes bad choices you two have made I love you and am proud of you both as you are very good people and will One day have your shit straight. :)   I am learning that those choices good bad sideways and upside down are just a part of growing up and even though I wish you did not have to put yourselves through so much shit... I am learning that you have to and I have to let you.

so my blisters I am recovering and life is getting back to its happy serene boring self and I am glad....
speaking of Bradley and I went swimming the other day and as I was dipping out the bugs dipped out the BIGGEST UGLIEST SPIDER .... It actually BUGGED me in how HUGE it was even though it was dead... I really dont like spiders LOL....

And are you ready for this??? Michael has gone to the store TWICE in the last two weeks WITH ME... His limit is usually once a year!!! he went again last night and it was really nice to be in the store with him... he even kissed me in the check out line (inside joke but its true) and Hallie just so you know he is really cute when he holds this red/pink coach purse for me to run to the restroom :)  

so thanks again ladies for all the support and texts and calls and love you send my way it keeps me going :)
Happy Sunday and God bless :)

PS Martha Jean I really want to load those pics you took of me and halo sometime soon as they are really good and guys please shed a tear for me... I had to choose to drop one of the kids or my purse a week or so ago so the purse dropped and I think I have KILLED YET ANOHTER CAMERA :(


9 comments:

Mental P Mama said...

What good would living be if we never learned any lessons? And you area Blister!!

Chris H said...

don't ya just hate those "I told you so' moments?
Luckily for me I have not heard that coming my way in years... but I have had reason to say it to several of my kids... it's NICE in a way to prove you really ain't a fool.
I hope you have many more normal, boring days ahead of you.
We can all do without the drama and stress.

OH and I've killed a camera that way too. lol

farmlady said...

Always drop a camera before you drop a baby. Cameras can be replaced.

I don't quite know what to say about all of this. Your kind and giving nature has always amazed me.
I guess that I can only say... Forgive yourself. Your husband has. He knows you best.
Forgive yourself and begin again.
Love and GRITS.

Paxie said...

Where would we be without our Blisters! I'm so glad you are back to the boring routine. As we get older, the drama affects us harder.

Mike is wonderful :)

I'm longing for boring right about now...

Alice said...

Laura, you have such a good heart and want to do such good things. God will bless you for your willingness to care for those who may not seem to deserve it. Can't wait to hear how oring your life is becoming. Ours, too (hopefully)...maybe we can arrange a trip for Austin, Bradley and Halo to play together soon. We've got a great yard now!!

jojo said...

Blisters make my heart smile...welcome back baby!

Bluebird49 said...

Oh --relief is in sight, huh! I'm so glad--and so sorry that the "other thing" didn't work out as planned. Things seldom do, huh? Hey--you tried with a capital 'T', didn't you? Now--with the holidays coming--hey--you and Mike will have serenity AND perhaps a new camera!:)

TonjiaT said...

love the word "blisters" LOLOl

welcome back Laura, you are a fighter!!

Wonderful World of Weiners said...

Of course he does. That bag is so cute ANYONE would look amazing holding it. :)

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