thank you ladies!

you know I have the most wonderful BLISTERS (term borrowed from daryl or lauren or someone but I love it) anyway thank you ladies for being here for reading my blathering my complaints, my dull life, the exciting, the drama ,the down right crazy....

some of you know more details than others and its ok, those who know less are less traumatised I am sure....
Michael and I have talked adnausieum about the situation I put us in, and realised in the talking about it just how deeply in shock we were from it  all...  apparently we all have some dysfunctional people in our lives and just how deeply involved with them we are varies... but , we have come to believe that I am a magnet for the sick twisted and insane in all areas of life.

And, for some reason I think I can help them and apparently they think so too as they show up here, I mean seriously the neighbors dog took up here for 7 years or more, Hank the cat who has meowed so much he no longer sounds like a tom cat but like a frog someone has stepped on and STILL after all these years will attack and scratch and bite me out of the blue yet he seems to think I am his person... my kids, my parents my bio parents my siblings... the list goes on and on....

BUT, I am a forgiving person,  and even though bits of trauma jump up out of the blue and smack me.  I forgive her for the last three months of insanity... I still love her... and to a VERY slim extent would try to help her in the future.  I wish her well, I hope she is finally where she needs to be and I hope that she lives a long happy life...

see I do know that I allowed this to happen because, it was me who not only invited her to come stay here to try to help her get back on her feet to help her figure out what and where she wanted and needed to be but, I also provided the MEANS as in money for her to get here, and money to help her while she was here... I did try to do it in exchange for something that she claimed ment something to her and I still have the something and maybe someday she will want it back and will send me the aggreed upon amount of money... but IF YOU ARE READING THIS SISTER there is a ONE YEAR time limit on that then I will give them to someone who you have something of hers something that means something to her... because you see NEITHER Item is worth much money it is the sentimental value that matters. 

Sorry had to let that information out as I know she used to stalk my blog and since she has deleted my entire family from her life and deleted any way we had to contact her ... well this is my way of letting her know...

anyway back to my fault in all of this mess... you need to know my blisters that I have apologised to my husband many times over the last three months and he has assured me that I did no wrong in this situation that I did all I could to try to help.  We provided a safe home, food, electricity, the van, the truck, repairs to her car, emotional support as best we could and that was not accepted... some bizzare things apparently were expected and when they were not given then we were shut out and honest thats really ok....

to my lovely daughter  and son... I still have to smile as I replay the words you said to me last Thursday afternoon... and I totally accept them... Yes, YOU TOLD ME SO... :)   enjoy them as you WILL NOT get to use them on me too  often... and for what its worth your brother made sure to say I TOLD YOU SO MAMA as well... in spite of all of the crazy sometimes bad choices you two have made I love you and am proud of you both as you are very good people and will One day have your shit straight. :)   I am learning that those choices good bad sideways and upside down are just a part of growing up and even though I wish you did not have to put yourselves through so much shit... I am learning that you have to and I have to let you.

so my blisters I am recovering and life is getting back to its happy serene boring self and I am glad....
speaking of Bradley and I went swimming the other day and as I was dipping out the bugs dipped out the BIGGEST UGLIEST SPIDER .... It actually BUGGED me in how HUGE it was even though it was dead... I really dont like spiders LOL....

And are you ready for this??? Michael has gone to the store TWICE in the last two weeks WITH ME... His limit is usually once a year!!! he went again last night and it was really nice to be in the store with him... he even kissed me in the check out line (inside joke but its true) and Hallie just so you know he is really cute when he holds this red/pink coach purse for me to run to the restroom :)  

so thanks again ladies for all the support and texts and calls and love you send my way it keeps me going :)
Happy Sunday and God bless :)

PS Martha Jean I really want to load those pics you took of me and halo sometime soon as they are really good and guys please shed a tear for me... I had to choose to drop one of the kids or my purse a week or so ago so the purse dropped and I think I have KILLED YET ANOHTER CAMERA :(

welcome home serenity...

I have debated on what I want to say want to share want to get out.... and have pretty much decided to simply say... welcome home serenity I have missed you something awful... and Michael has too... we welcome you home with open arms and hope and pray you never leave us again...

sometimes

I wonder what the heck is going on in others heads... then I figure I might not want to know.

there is so much I want to talk about to ask about to ...

but, not so sure that others want me to be a part of their lives... and I am not one to push into where I am not wanted. 

I don't understand how....

do I really want to???

Cant help but wonder how people ...ok  some people not all people....

well HELL this is getting me no where and solving nothing... as if there is a solution.

THERE IS A SOLUTION.

Anyway... all tapped out.  got nothing left to give...

HATE FEELING this way...it is NOT me, NOT who I am, NOT how I live yet, find myself in it up to my neck and not sure how to fix it change it make it go ... MUST find MY SERENITY....

WILL FIND IT :)  KNOW HOW TO AND WHERE TO...

Be back when I have it...

love hugs and God bless :)

playing catch up from 8-4 -11 onward....

my bestie longest friend came to town and we took bradley to the zoo in columbia on the 4th of august.. it was JUST 104 degrees out... insanely hot. but, HE loved it!

somewhere I have a picture of his daddy and three of his friends when they were 4 years old sitting on this very turtle!

 the flamingos are beautiful but DARN they STINK!

 dragon sitting is so much fun....

 these guys would dash by his hands and fingers I think they liked playing with the children on the other side of the glass...

 Bradley liked climbing then jumping down from these rocks...

 he and jeanette fed the goats until we ran out of quarters and had picked up most of the food that had been dropped by others...

 of course he had to give the goat a kiss too... then we RAN to the sinks and scrubbed of the slobbers and slime from them... but they were just too cute!

 I am not sure who was more excited here the riff raff jeanette or bradley ... there were two babies here too and they would come to get their share...

 click the pic below and check out the tongues on the babies they were loving the kids feeding them and petting them... (the would love being wild even more i am sure but, they have a good life )

 all the kids love these statues that are scattered though out the park and sitting on them and taking pics...

 our last stop was inside the aquariums, partly because they were cool inside and we were melting!  Bradley thought these were the best thing he would run from one to the next and back to sit on the little steps and he would yell PISH PISH PISH... he was a tad excited!

 Halo has been coming over pretty regularly... its good to see her and spend time with her she loved the pork steak bone... suck, chew, slobber, drool ,repeat... she is such a good baby and plays and play and is learning to crawl and sit on her own :)

 Michael has been working outside for a bit now knocking down walls pouring concrete making a BIG wonderful patio putting some roof up and just making things very nice for us all out in the back yard.

 Ha ha Halo loves chewing on a cloth diaper(burp rag) sHE WILL LOVE IT AND SNUGGLE IT BITE IT PET IT AND CALL IT GEORGE... OH sorry cap loc and mental slip into an old movie there... can you name the movie(with a few additions from me in that )

 and halo and papa have fun too... she will about break her neck to see him when he comes in and will hollar if he leaves the room until he comes back... she loves her papa and he loves her :)

now on to SOME not all of the stuff happening around here...
last monday (week ago) cory called me said momma the car wont start and i have to be to work in 30... stephanie is at work. can you carry me to work... so off i went to pick him up and get him to work... just a little late... told him that on his next day off I would come over and help to get the car going as they need the car and its an hour round trip for me to go get him and carry him to work.  so wednesday comes around... and we take the battery to advanced auto ...it is dead or near enough to death (i had bought that battery in 02) that it needed replaced... and of course that was NOT all wrong with the car... the alternator was too (it was replaced in 02 as well) GAH... well got that all done then on friday when lori was out the darn Black truck battery died too... it has NOT been replaced yet...Her car died th week before and it being a Saab with out a book and michael has not been able to find the info on line yet that he needs... it is just sitting and will sit for a while.
now to back track... on the 6th (my 44th Birthday) at 315 ish in the afternoon we had some major lightening thunder and rain storms... we lost power for a short spell (15 minutes or less) but we lost cable thank you lightening,  for 5 days... which means no internet... not only that but in the last week we learned we lost not ONE but TWO tvs AND vcrs the cable box, the uv light on the pond and the ICEMAKER in the freezer LITERALLY BLEW A GASKET.... there is black oil all over inside and of course the soonest a repair person can come is tomorrow... told the woman to send him with a new ice maker in hand because i dont want to hear oh well we have to order the part and it will be another 2 weeks... GAH!
and the icing on the cake of life... friday when Lori was out and the truck died on her, it was to go to the dr as she has had a few things going on... and we will know more today later... but, they are thinking that she has Hodgekins lymphoma, so we will be figuring out what has to be done and how to go about it soon (hopefully today we will have a diagnosis and treatment plan and perhaps even start treatment.)

and that is the short version of whats been happening here in the house of Hall... I have missed you all and maybe someday will even get caught up ... not holding my breath however...
But always remember that God is in control and one day we will look back on the trials of today and realise that they just are not that big :)  love and hugs and Happy Monday :) 

it has been

a crazy couple of weeks have tons to  catch up on but wont happen today... anyway just popping in to say hi and we are still here... :) hope you all have an amazing weekend!

Halo spent the night

with grandma... I ONLY took 95 pictures... but you only get to see the best 14 :)

 she gets those wild arms to going...

 and flops over....

 and uses those chunky legs to get back to where she wants to be.....

 off the blanket of course....

 she goes a great job of sitting alone for being 7 months old....

 and laughs and spits and giggles and goes HA HA HA

 and did I mention Slobbers....

 yummy baby sugar slobers....

 and clicks her toungue... click click click.....she does push ups and knee rocks too....

 Great Grandma I think you got her this dress, today is the first day she has worn it... it is a wee bit big but oh sooooo cute..

 nosy sugar with mama.....

 and may fun toys to play with ... :)

cant wait till we play some more :) hopefully swimming tomorrow with Bradley!  :)  hope you all have an amazing Tuesday!