well I cant keep doing this with martha I cant be a part of her life if she chooses to go back to mike today then I no longer have a daughter or grand daughter.... she refuses to give herself time to make it on her own. she hates her dad when in reality its me she probably should hate... well i think she hates me too truth be known,  i never dreamed i could be hurt by her so badly but i guess i was just too close to her when she was younger and it hurts me so much becuase i expect and believe in so much more for her... i knew when she left that if she talked to him she would go back... no doubts about it in my mind... I dont know why and what he has over her but she will suffer and so will halo all of her life because of it... I am so sad... and hurt by her yet again.... no more... I cant do this any more... I have to let them go and NOT be used by her  I cant allow that to happen any more.... I dont think she will even come speak to me about it all i believe she will stay right there with him ... and its to the point that she has not hit rock bottom ...I cant be her driver or babysitter any more... she will have to totally use up everyone and every thing and I can only pray that halo lives through it all.... I will be crushed with out halo in our lives and her papa will be too... but what else can we do....
there is nothing....
let her go and let god take it... is all i can do
I cant do this... I cant go back and forth with martha.... I cant live without halo...